There is this feeling I have been experiencing in the last few days, weeks actually. It is difficult to explain. A lump in the pit of my stomach. An excitement. A fear. The unknown, such a simple word, yet stretches so wide. It is this that I have decided to embrace. This wide unknown.
A page in my book has been turned. I am changing aspects of my life that used to be my comfort zone. My calculated life of career over everything. Work has been something I can control to it's extreme. To the very last minute. I have decided to turn to life instead. The uncontrollable part of life. Am I scared? Shitless. Am I unsure if I am making the right decision. Absolutely. I do find myself happy though. In a good space. My head is in the right place.
Life is the new way forward. Friends. Family. Work. All balanced. They have to be. I have to force it, until it becomes natural and nature. Will it be something I have to adapt too, oh yes. But I am excited for it. I am looking out for the new adventure. Holidays. Old friend. New friends. Love. Heartbreak. Laughing and tears. This is what awaits me in the unknown. I am looking forward to it. To stumbling on the path, but always getting back up and moving forward.
I remember an old catholic joke about a man who spent his whole life going to a church every day and prayed to the statue of a great saint begging "please, please, please, let me win the lottery." Finally the exasperated statue comes to life and looks down at the begging man and says "my son, please, please, please, buy a ticket." So now I get the joke, and I bought three tickets."
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