Wonderbox

Sometime I catch myself drifting around in my own head. A mind filled with swirling thoughts and ideas, a complete space of chaotic order and beauty. Each idea, each thought so beautifully crafted with vivid detail and exceptional clarity. Random thoughts of life and love. Death and the beyond. Ideas and thoughts flowing seamlessly from one to the other creating it's own marvelous and disturbing movie in my mind. I sit and get absorbed by these movies, watching as a child would their favourite movie character come to life before their eyes. Wonderment.

My mother always said to me that it is perfectly normal to talk to yourself, however, when you start answering yourself you have a problem. Wise words. Makes sense once you give it a moments thought. What is happening inside my head must be utter madness. Do need a white jacket and a puffy walled room? Or do I simply sit and enjoy the movie? Surprised at my own creativity and ability to visualize?

These thoughts, these movies, often entrap me - lingering long after the last frame has had it's turn to play. Scene and screenshots fill my eyes as does music and lyrics. This movie of mine never truly comes to an end. A scene can give birth to a whole new story, an elaboration of the movie. So it goes in this wonderbox that is my mind. Once in a while I unexpected feel a tear falling from my cheek as these movies reflect what my heart feels - comedy and drama unfold in these reels.

A very wise man once told me that we are defined by our collective life experience. That each experience changes us and molds us into the people we are. No two are the same. Each person has their very own unique experience of life and experiences that have the lingering and profound ability to change us at our core, change our behaviors and mindsets. Is this simply what inspires my wonderbox to churn and create such spectacular pantomimes?

For now I will allow my moments of cinema in my mind, it is after all exceptionally affordable entertainment. Never disappointing me with what is on show.

My experience. My life. My wonderbox.

Yours,
Ry