Today I get on a plane and go on a mini adventure all on my own - this will be my first. I am terribly excited and nervous. What will this new country and place hold for me? What treasures am I going to unlock and discover? Will my spiritual centre find balance and peace, or am I going into a warzone? I suppose only time will tell.
My heart, however, is not in a space of complete joy. There is conflict about health. mine and that of the man whom I love so much. Is there something in my brain, that has been causing me to be such a monster? Making it difficult to love me? Making it impossible to love me? Anxious I am for the news to reach me, but I will wait until I have achieved my adventure goal. Whatever the news, I will be strong and courageous, I will survive what I must and kick the ass of that which ails me.
I depart my country with the knowledge that the man in my heart is going through pain and anxiety about his own medical issues - such a wound to heal. Take care of yourself, dear man. Take the best possible care of yourself, rest a lot and allow God to heal what is broken. If I could have stayed I would have - but there is a purpose to everything.
Today I prove something to myself. Something deep inside me. That longing for freedom and travels. Today I prove to myself that I am capable of doing it on my own, of being by myself and enjoying the time in another country, to learn and grow.
To the journey, dear readers.
May it be an adventure.
Yours
Ry
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