Now I sit here. With my head full of words and thoughts, my heart full of sadness - and I wonder why. I am in a new country, strange and unexplored as yet. So much to see. Little Paris with the head of Morocco. Fantastic food and new people. Your soul follows me around, always 2 steps behind. I see you everywhere. In the water and in the distance. Next to me when I sleep. My twin - our sparks of light. Where is my heart? It feels hollow inside my chest.
Truly blessed I am to be here - to experience the new and ways of life. An experience to remember. Amazing people encountered. New food that tantalises my tongue and mind. Yet I think so much of you. Are you okay? Feeling better? Are you happy or sad? Do you miss me, even a little? Is only your soul longing for me? I walk around and smile and marvel at the wonder that is this city - I wish I could see it with you. You would love it here.
My head is wondering around, between illness and health. The cause and effect of news yet understood. Have I been sick all this time, driving away the man who I loved and still love. Will he ever forgive me for acts done, and give understanding? What will become of me? Shall I perish alone? I hold back the tears and clear the thoughts in my mind. There is no answer yet, just demons whispering the doubts.
The local energy weavers are unhappy at my presence, they see me as a threat.
The weather changes as my mind thinks these things. I stop myself. Forcing only the light in my head. I shall love thee from a far - for what else can I do?
A grand adventure awaits - should I be able to leave the office! Work is so delayed.
I will make the most of my short time here.
I will eat the best food and drink the best beer.
I will enjoy the heat and sun.
To the adventure alone. To the adventure unknown.
I am strong.
Bring it.
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