The final words has now been spoken. What is left to do? You have apologised for your mistakes, you have acknowledged your shortcomings, you have declared your love - yet still he chooses to walk away. From everything we were, everything we could be - the sparks of light drawn to each other, the twin souls merged. Everything and more than we had prayed for our entire lives.
Our mistakes were the same, our pain felt - the same. Betrayal from both sides. Forgiveness it seems, from one. Is he so intent on holding onto the pain, the ego and the pride that he are willing to focus only on that which has gone wrong, instead of taking my hand and walking towards the good? Our pain is as real to ourselves as it can be, the hurt is undeniable. Sadness remains in all both of our hearts, the heartbreak is still so fresh. Sadness of the soul. Yet love remained.
Oh how I do understand the needs of your soul, the needs of your mind and the reasoning behind your actions, can you truly say the same? Perhaps you can. My actions caused you harm, but then again so did yours. Our pain is the same. The anger will go in time, stop assuming the worst and listen to my words - I have made this mistake, it leads to dark things. Yet love remained.
How big a betrayal had I not forgiven? How big a heart ache had I not replaced with love.
Did I also not give in abundance and offer all of myself?
I am not the darkness that you assume me to be.
The fear of health is weighing on my mind. The concern for a future is near. Yet my strength remains, my body stands tall and my lips smile. Yes I can align my chakras and regain my spirit balance, but who now will bless me?
God always provides what we need. It is His way.
Always he will be my soul companion and love. I will take your hand and walk towards the light - if you would allow me.
There is nothing left to say,
There is nothing left to do,
There is nothing left.
Ry
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