Awakening...

After a very intense meeting with my guru I received very welcome information regarding the current stage of my life. I have never seen someone who has been that excited about the events that have been happening in my life. I was almost irritated at the positive nature of this woman. She was right tho, she always seems to be. On a side note, I realise now how blessed I am to have the amazing teachers and gugu's that I have had for this period.

She took her time and explained to me why this period in my life is the most blessed event to happen to me - she explained that she only went through this experience at the age of 35, and wished that she could have had the 7 year head start that I am now getting. She also explained that there are people who are only going through this awakening at the age of 50 and older. "You are blessed."

She explained to me that every single event that has happened until now in my life has had the intended purpose to bring me to this very point. This crescendo is the clear sign that everything has had to change, all the influences and external power accumulated has led to this inevitable point - to change everything in my life. To completely overhaul my life. To reconnect to that which I am meant to do in this life, to strive to my soul's true purpose and need. Everything needed to change, all the people in my life were meant to be divided between those who truly loves me and understands me, and those who have had only conditional love for me - those who have decided to look and focus on their own shallow pain and hurt instead of considering the factors at play in my life. All this has had to happen, and it had to happen now.

She gave me a deep and long look, searching through my heart and reading my soul like a book. She promptly told me that love is my souls need and goal. This is the journey that I am on. To find love, to give love and to love in general. She told me that this is usually the final lesson that a soul has to learn and attain to reach final enlightenment. She asked me if I have not suddenly experienced a change in my opinions, my insights and my feelings towards the aspects of my life? She was right, every single aspect of my life, from work, sex, life, and material possessions have changed entirely.

This was a sign that I have started listening to my soul and what it needs and requires from me to reach enlightenment. This was my soul journey, my life journey. Love.

As I have learned, first from "Seat of the Soul" and now with "Love it Forward" these words are being echoed from strangers, being communicated in new ways. From woundmate to soulmate, to intentions and reactions, laws and karma. I am more and more aware of that which I am on, the final path home. It is so exciting.

Only when I have learned the lessons of this pain and of these effects will I be ready, and be truly ready for love and for my soulmate and life companion. Not before. I need to learn now, to understand now, to truly search myself and find that which I need to change and heal the wounds left from many years ago. Once I have reached that level of enlightenment of myself will I be ready to get and be in a true and loving relationship - with a soulmate that is physically and spiritually unable to hurt me and I will be entirely unable to hurt him in return. If I do not learn, then I am destined to relive the lessons over and over, until I learn. I will encounter my woundmate time and time again, until I learn the lessons brought forward and brought to light by him.

To this end and feeling that this is what is required for me at this stage and with the understanding that I am immensely loved and I have support from many people and from God himself, I am going into a state of solitude - not loneliness, but content alone-ness. This includes social medias - including Facebook, Whatsapp and the alike. I need to get away from all that which distracts me and does not add any value to my life at this stage. I will interact with my family and with a select few friends that inspire me and have been with me through the difficult times, but no more of the meaningless interactions with "friends" that I am only good enough for for a good time or for fun events or for money or support. My interactions with people will be minimal but fruitful, and my interaction with God and nature will be plentiful and enriching.

Only when I am truly silent will I hear the voice of God.

I will continue to write on my blog, to film, to speak, as I am speaking to no-one and everyone all at once. It is not a dialogue it is my expression.  Perhaps I may just help someone in the process of helping myself again.

Here is to the journey, dear friends and strangers.
Ry